:: dooce.com & a revelation ::

"No matter what horrible thing you're going through, when it's all over it only takes three seconds to sum it up. Remember that."

I don't know if anybody ever reads any of the blogs I have listed at the side of my own blog, but I got the little blurb above from dooce.com--a completely irreverent, profane, somewhat deranged woman who lives somewhere in Utah, who does something for a living I'm sure, but the other thing she does really well is write. She is hysterically freaking funny, once you get over the shock of what she just said. Read her. Just don't tell me I didn't warn you.

But the other thing she is, and this is perhaps the real reason I read her blog at all is that she is real. and honest. and willing to put herself out there. Me? not so much. I have a blog, but I am very careful about what I put on it and the impression that I give off. I try not to be, but I am. And I spend an inordinate amount of time being pissed off about who might or might not be reading my blog. This was a revelation that came to me today, so as Oprah says, when we know better, we do better. So I'm over it. Read it, or don't read it. I love to write, and I have something to say about just about everything. (Just ask my husband and my older brother)so that is what I intend to do forthwith. This blog started out as a way to notify my family of our goings-on, but I think everyone (everyone being me and the three people who actually read my blog on a regular basis) would be better served if what they got was just me...whatever that happens to be on any given day.

And today, that quote spoke to me, because as much as I love being here, as much as I am glad that we are on this new path in our lives, it still does not feel like something that will be summed up in three seconds. But I have to say, it's the way it's always worked before, so I don't expect that this will be any different...Just wish it would hurry up and become something I can sum up, instead of something I'm living.